I wrote this after my first visit to Cuba at the beginning of the new millennium. We’ll be passing near there soon. If we're discovered in Cuban waters, we could lose our boat. But I’m still tempted.
I’m obsessed. I can’t get Cuba out of my mind. It fills my thoughts during the day and my dreams at night. They’re confusing thoughts, as hazy as the smog that hangs over Havana.
This dichotomous island culture resides ninety miles from our southern border housing vibrant cities with the outward appearance of a ghetto inhabited by a highly literate and articulate population full of song and dance, barely getting by. There’s only one thing I’m sure of. I’m going back.
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Havana Youth |
You have to sneak in.
Nassau: I’m crouched inside a Cubana Air Yak 42 that tilts on the runway like a wounded duck. We’re waiting for a storm to pass. Fat pellets of rain splat against the scratched surface of the window, then blur against the darkening sky. The visa in my breast pocket says ‘The Bahamas’, but we all know better. My neck aches from where the flight attendant pushed my head down when I entered. Her apologetic smile tried to compensate for the 4-foot high opening obviously designed for a yak.
It’s sweltering inside. The interior looks like it was dredged from a lake bottom. We perspire in silence before the pilot turns on the air. A dense fog immediately fills the cabin. The vapor condenses in the cracks on the ceiling and plop down on our already sweat soaked heads.
The storm centers itself over the airport, fracturing the light. At its height, the pilot takes off.
We shoot into the black clouds. The engines howl as lightning bolts reflect off of the thick mist and explode around us. I peer outside at one of the engines. It’s encased in rust.
An elderly woman is hunched next to me consumed in fingering her rosary. She looks up and fixes her pleading eyes on mine. I turn away and measure my breath, hoping the pilot will climb above the fury. He never does.
We spend the next hour zigzagging through the tempest. The woman grabs my leg each time we hit an air pocket. I stare at the grey cloak of clouds swirling outside. There, I conjure up the vision of a tiny plastic yak stuck to the console of the cockpit. Its plastic head bobbing frantically as the maniacs flying this piece of crap search the darkened skies for their homeland.
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Sunrise over Havana |
I expect to see the military: Tanks, jeeps, something. The only object in sight is an antiquated DC-3. It’s dumped in some weeds missing a wing. Next to it, a low concrete building solemnly awaits. I step out onto the rain-soaked tarmac. The stench of gas and oil permeates the moist air. The odor follows me into the building where a guy in a starched uniform glares at my passport, then at me. He stamps my entry visa and shoos me away. I pick out my bag and walk between two cafeteria tables. Ahead of me, an official chats with a guy in a Guyabera shirt. The officer glances at my satchel and waves me through without halting his conversation. And that’s it.
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Downtown Havana |
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Eastern Cuba |
DAY TWO
It’s Saturday afternoon in Old Havana. Siesta time. I’m holed up in my rented room in an apartment flat searching for salsa music on the radio. This shouldn't be difficult except Fidel is on. I twist the knob. His voice fades then reappears. Eventually, I hit on some music, but his speech remains in the background. I like it. I don’t understand a word he’s saying, but his voice sounds charismatic. I realize that I may be the only one in the city tuning in and that’s only because he’s bleeding into my station. Whenever I ask anyone about Fidel, their eyes shoot up towards the ceiling. Hanna Montana is way more popular here. But I understand Lil’ Wayne is catching up fast.
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Meyer Lansky's Hotel |
LA MUSICA
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Baracoa |
Our musicians stop playing. The circle forms into two lines. The leader looks at me and introduces the band. They launch into a full-blown orchestration that drowns out the beat from the other club. What I’d been listening to was only a rehearsal. Now it’s time for the music.
ECONOMY
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Santiago |
The island is an agricultural oasis. Once you leave the congestion of Havana, mile upon mile of fertile farmland stretches out towards the horizon. But the country is desperate for cash, so the abundant variety of produce that grows here is all exported. That leaves rice, plantains and maybe a handful of beans for the Cubans.
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The Writer, (he's since fled). |
He tells me about when he and his wife got married. “It was just after the Soviet Union broke apart and we had nothing. There was no food or liquor for any guests, so it was just the two of us. But we did manage a toast. My wife had saved a little sugar that we put in two glasses of water.” Which brings me to the embargo.
THE EMBARGO
As long as the US turns its back on the Cuban people, they’re left with the Castro brothers who have been in a pissing contest with the US for the last fifty years. And guess who it’s been raining on? Not Fidel. He wears tailored suits and drives around in a Mercedes; three of them to be exact. Meanwhile, the strain of being Cuban cuts into the handsome features of everyone else like rivulets.
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Newspaper Salesman |
I try to think of a reasonable answer. When that fails, I shrug my shoulders and say, “We‘re a big country. We make a lot of mistakes. It’s simply your turn”.
I have heard the argument that if we lift the embargo, it won’t make any difference. After all, the Cuban Government doesn’t have cash to buy anything. Perhaps. I think once American tourists rediscover the beauty of the island and its people, they’ll come. (Don’t think this is lost of the other islands. They pray every night that we’ll keep the embargo in place. Cuba used to be the #1 tourist destination in the Caribbean.)
If the tourists invade, that special uniqueness that is Cuba may be lost. I’d hate to see another culture gentrified for the sake of tourism. But I’d pour the first bucketful of concrete on one of their pristine beaches if I thought it would help.
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First Communion in Santiago |
“How long did they detain you?” I ask.
“Not long,” he answers. “Only six months.”
I’m incredulous. “How about the other times?” Part of me doesn’t want to know the answer.
“Two years the first time and eighteen months the second. My boyfriend is in prison now. It’s hard to say how long they’ll keep him.”
All this is matter-of-fact. Like the police checks that can occur anywhere. It’s all part of being Cuban. Joaquin served in the Army. He trained in Russia and fought briefly in Angola. None of that matters. And we think our Vietnam Vets got a raw deal.
I am still mystified by this disregard for their own people. I leave him at a coffee stand and hail a taxi.
“Why do the police stop its citizens?” I ask the cab driver as we glide down the Malecon.
“Because they’re the police!” he retorts.
He tries to overcharge me when we reach my apartment. I think he figured if I can ask something that stupid, I may be a total idiot.
THE SEX TRADE
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Judith |
“I don’t like doing this,” she confesses over a vanilla milkshake. “But I have a three-year-old son in Cienfuegus. It’s because of him I come here.”
The street overflows with women of various types. Most come from the other provinces. Their goal is to earn enough to support their families for a while. When that's gone, they’ll return. They all have one thing in common. They’re young. As much as she despises her work, Judith is lucky. She has looks. The chances are good she will find someone. If not tonight, then maybe tomorrow. If she’s fortunate, she’ll earn $50 for an hour's work. That’s more than a doctor makes here in two months. In a few years though, she’ll be in her mid-twenties. That’s just too old.
I think back to the embargo. One of the most vocal groups for keeping it in place are the Cuban-Americans. Don’t they realize that these are their nieces and nephews out there selling themselves in the streets?
THE ECONOMY
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Miguelito |
Scores of people approach me with various requests, all of which would result in their economic gain and my monetary loss. I’m doing a credible job of fending them off until a guy and his wife spot me. He’s wearing a soccer jersey and I love the game. So I lower my guard and converse. As I’m saying goodbye she asks me if I’d buy her a gift. I’m expecting this and reach into my pocket for a dollar.
“Oh no,” she exclaims. “We don’t want money!”
They both grab my arm and carry me to a little stand that sells dry goods. There they order two large plastic sacks of what I take to be flour. When I’m handed the bill I understand that it’s powdered milk.
“It’s for our baby,” they explain.
After they leave, I chuck the newspaper in the bin. I just got hustled for $15 worth of lactose for a two-year-old and don’t mind it a bit.
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Guard Change; Jose' Marti Memorial |
The only tangible result of the revolution I witness is that the island is incredibly clean. You drive down the highway and there’s not a speck of trash on the roadside: no bottles, cans or food wrappers. Nothing. Then again, the Cubans don’t have much to throw away.
What the government calls their “Revolutionary Society” can be described this way:
"No one is free, everyone is equal and tourists are exempted."
In this Orwellian world, unless a visitor does something stupid, they’re untouchable. For example, the police constantly stop Cubans. They must produce their papers or go to jail. Touristas are ignored.
On the Autopista, police checkpoints routinely stop and search vehicles. Rental cars are always waved through.
Vacationers can enter any hotel in the country. Cubans cannot.
Certain sections of the country are off-limits to Cubans, but not to outsiders. (The entire peninsula of Veradero Beach for one, although that's slowly changing.) Where does all this leave the people? Extremely pissed off. Not at us. They love us. We’re the big juicy tit they’re hoping to suckle one day.
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Consulate in Havana |
I hope once the Castro Brothers fade away there will be another revolution, a capitalist one. You can wait until then if you like, but if you really want to see something unique……………..
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The Author |
"Understanding Cuba" was interesting, sensitive, and brilliant! (Bravo!)
ReplyDeleteMore captivating writing, this one in my fave Hemingway-esque style: short and declarative sentences, trenchant observation, piquant wit. And obviously a labor of love. Genius!
ReplyDeleteOh, and the photos are striking too.
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